As I’ve said before, one of the reasons I rushed to get this blog up and running was to participate in Galina Krasskova’s Month for Loki.
The reason this came about now is related to a Heathen group called The Troth, of which I am not a member. I don’t know the story very well, but this is what I understand (and I invite those with better knowledge to correct me in the comments): The Troth had a rule that members could not hail Loki because it caused problems with frith. (Frith is a Norse term for “everyone getting along as best they can”.) No one seems to know what the problems with frith were, and no amount of asking has yielded an answer. Anyway, the Troth has a big get together every year, called Trothmoot. This year, a bunch of renegade Lokeans got together and held a private blot (ritual) for Loki. Then a somewhat prominent member of the Troth decided to hail Loki during one of their big rituals. The reaction of the Troth was to look at their ban on Loki-hailing and change things….kinda. It’s now okay for Troth members to privately hail Loki and/or work with Loki in their own spiritual path, but Loki is still banned from their big group rituals.
Now, my UPG (unverified personal gnosis; that is, what the Gods tell me) is that Loki doesn’t care so much. It’s always been Loki’s line with me that he’s happy to go where he’s invited and if he really needs to go somewhere he’s been banned from, he’ll find a way. After all, he’s a God; they’re little meatsacks who think saying something makes it true. But what bothers me about anywhere that limits what Gods from a pantheon one can honor is that it smacks of residual Christian influences. That there somehow can’t be a group of Gods without dividing them into Good and Bad. And/or that Order is somehow inherently good and Chaos is inherently bad.
I’m going to go all gamer geek on you for a moment and I promise you’ll be okay. For a long time, and probably still to this day, my favorite role playing game was Werewolf: The Apocalypse by White Wolf Studios. I even ran a LARP in that world for three years. The game has a heavy spiritual component, as werewolves are spiritual beings who are working to try to balance three cosmic forces: The Wyld, or untamed creative energy; the Weaver, or that which brings order and stasis to creation; and the Wyrm, that which breaks down what is no longer necessary. In the game world, the three started out working together in harmony, but then they tried to prove that each was the most important. Somewhere in this process, the Wyrm went from being natural destruction to corruption, and therefore the entropic forces were now creating pure evil beings who corrupted for the sake of corruption. (Fun villians for a sadist like me to write for!) So most people who approach the game see it as the Wyld and the Weaver trying to reel the Wyrm back in.
I never saw it that way. All three need to be in balance, but our world is very full of Weaver, too. People have evolved to exist in a world where there is so much newness that we all cling to things that are less likely to change. We still enter into relationships thinking that this one will be different from every other one and will last forever. We buy cars hoping that this will be the car that will last us over a decade. We desperately want things to stay as much the same as possible.
Loki (yeah, I know, I’m not writing an essay about W:tA) is very much committed to the concept that sometimes shit’s gonna be burned down in order for new things to grow. Many of his opponants fear or hate him because they think he forces change for changes’ own sake, but that’s not been my experience of him at all. Loki looks at a situation and, finding it broken and in need of replacement, begins to break it down so eventually it will have to be replaced. And this can be scary for someone who isn’t used to it. It scared me, the first time I really surrendered the reigns of my life to him. Things I thought would never change about me – oh, say, my gender identity? – were suddenly on the table for examination.
As someone who works so closely with Loki that I beam with his energy often, I have had to adjust to a life where everything is being tested. I have learned to enjoy the process of looking at a situation and asking why it is the way it is, especially if that situation is causing discomfort, drama, or grief. You’d be surprised how many people cling to life situations not because they are happy about them, but the mere thought of changing them (even to something more desirable or better) scares them beyond belief. The known is so much more comfortable than the unknown.
A side effect of this is that everything in my life is examined on a regular basis. Does the name “Del” still serve me? Do I need to stop going to this event I’ve been at for the last eight years? Should I grow my hair? Is Maryland where I need to live right now? Should I start looking for a more traditional job? Nothing is ever etched in stone. Nothing is permanent. Even my association with Loki could change if working with a different Deity would be a better thing (for me, for the universe, for Loki).
So the devotional act I ask you to consider to kick off this “month of Loki” is to take some time and really examine your life. Look at all the little details – your name, where you live, what you do with your free time, your job, your relationships, your car, the things you collect, the people you spend time with – and give them as impartial a once-over as you are capable. Maybe ask Loki for his help, if you think you can handle it. (He’s brutally honest, and once he tells you something needs to go, your life will keep making it easier and easier for that thing to go…) Find something in your life that you’re ready to change, and give domain of it to Loki. Tell him that you are ready to root out that which isn’t serving you anymore and replace it with something better. Make a sacrifice of your fear, your habitual nature, your desire for things to stay the same forever. I’d even suggest literally burning it – writing whatever it is on a piece of paper and holding it over a candle flame until it’s ash.
Hail Loki, he who sees what others hide from their own eyes!
Hail Loki, who upturns the apple cart so as to reveal the rot beneath!
Hail Loki, may he assist us in living the most fulfilling life we can!